Kind of ruined my good mood there, buddy.

I just wanna say....

NO ONE WOULD CARE ENOUGH TO DO THAT SHIT FOR MY BIRTHDAY.
okay im alright now. My friend just turned sixteen, and i love her. but it bothers me that people are doing all this shit for her birthday, not just hers, all of them go full out for eachothers birthday. i have known them for years and i barely even get a "happy bday" from some of them. i never had a big party for me before. i guess it was partly cos i had a fear of people not showing up. im not very popular, atleast i wasnt in elementary school.

i always feel so alone on my birthdays. my family always does something for me, my sister especially always trys to make me feel special. i know im not. i hate going to birthday parties. i go to some if i know it'll feel like we're hanging out like usual. i dodnt go to my friends sweet sixteen yesterday cos one of them is being really immature and rude about my financial situation.
whatever. i really wish i atleast came to drop off her present or something, i really do love the girl; she and i never had any problems.

i hung out with my sister and her bff today. i got some makeup and some overpriced food. some guy wanted to buy off my sisters olympic mittens.it was pretty funny cos about an hour earlier some lady asked for her toque. people are desperate.

sigh
sigh
sighhhhhh
i have to go to work with my mum, i would rather sit in my room and feel sorry for myself while folding some clothes.
I'll post again soon (again, not that anyone cares),

Love your little dead girl,

Kasia